I work in a place where job=life if you want to get ahead. We're officially told we should seek balance, but folks above a certain grade level get laptops instead of desktops so they can take the things home. You're told it's for travel reasons, but it's because you're expected to take the thing home with you at night and, well, work.

If I leave at 50, which I really want to do, I will be taking a hit. I will definitely have to work parttime unless the writing really picks up, but as much as I hate to say it, I don't want to have to rely on writing money. It's too iffy.

I should stay until 55, but I don't want to lose the writing time. Unless my job transmutes into something I really like, boy, do I want to leave. because there are other things out there.